Egg-citing December

Yes. It has been an exciting december, ever since my disastrous exams were over and stuffs.

Had plenty of outings with different groups of friends, attending of weddings and more.

Words can't tell much but pictures does so i will let them do the talking :D

K-Box with cliques after soooooo long :D

Cousin's Wedding <3

OG's Timbre + Slumber Partayyy (:

Another note aside, results were released today vis push SMS. and oh god. i didnt dare to read my msg, which i eventually did. To qoute what my friend said : " i dont know whether to cry or laugh." and "not sure if its really worth calling for a celebration." Very true indeed. It fits totally. The crying part with the lousiest C.A.P that i have seen in my studying history, and the laughing part with chemistry which i had prepared to retake next sem. Well i guess its no use crying over spilled milk for everything is over. Time to embrace the incoming semester and i sincerely hope i will not encounter such disastrous grades ever again. And talking of next sem, only one word: HAIZ. Am i doing a life science major or a computing major? Seriously. Guess i will see myself talking computer language for the whole of sem 2. Well then, prepare for the challenge stacy.

p.s. although its only a teeny weeny short trip to cameron for a wedding, i cant wait to leave here for some fresh air. and thanks joan for helping me with my module bidding part :D

A Sore Biochemistry Story

The story is about a mRNA, who felt lonely. So he pulled over a ribosome to translate himself a protein for company.

He said to the protein: Hi, I'm your template.

"Hi, I'm RNase." The protein replied.

There was silence for a very short while, and the mRNA continued: Never mind, I won't live for long anyway. Why not we spend some time together?

"Ok." The protein said.

Then they stood side by side for a while. Suddenly the protein said: Actually I'm not RNase yet.

mRNA: Er.

Protein: I'm now just a polypeptide.

mRNA smiled.

Protein: But I'll become real RNase very soon.

mRNA: It's ok. Eventually I'll die anyway.

Protein stayed close to mRNA. She slowly began to twist, fold and make up herself. She looked more and more like a real RNase. Meanwhile, the mRNA started to degrade.

Protein: I think I'd better leave, maybe you can live longer without me.

mRNA: Don't, don't leave. I have something to tell you.

mRNA: You know, I used to have a template as well, his name is DNA.

Protein: Where is he now?

mRNA: He has been sleeping for very long time. His promoter was switched off.

Protein: Who did that? Will he ever wake up again?

mRNA: It was me.

And then he smiled: But he will wake up. As long as I'm gone, he'll wake up.

mRNA continued: I remembered the time I was just transcribed, the DNA said to me, hi, I'm your template. I said, hi, I'm mRNA. Then he smiled and said, nice to meet you. Then he slowly fell asleep.

Protein didn't say anything.

"I missed him a lot." mRNA's voice started to fade, "I'm vanishing. If he wake up, and happen to meet you, would you say hi to him one more time for me?"

And then the mRNA was degraded.

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DNA slowly woke up and saw a little protein standing by, looking at him carefully.

Protein: Hi, I am RNase.

DNA: Hi, I am DNA.

Protein: Hi.

Protein: This second Hi, is from mRNA.

DNA remembered, last time before he fell asleep, he just transcribed a mRNA, but he only said a hi before he fell asleep.

DNA: Where is the mRNA now?

Protein replied without an answer: mRNA said he missed you so much.

DNA smiled: I miss him as well.

Protein: He has already degraded.

…

Protein: But sometimes I would rather be like him.

DNA: Why?

Protein looked at DNA for seconds: Because you miss him as well.

Protein felt wet suddenly, he cried.....and the he hydrolyzed.

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DNA finally transcribed another mRNA.

DNA: Hi. I am your template.

mRNA: Hi. I am mRNA.

DNA looked at him, softly said: You look like him, actually exactly the same.

mRNA: Who?

DNA: Oh, another mRNA I transcribed last time.

He paused and said: You two look just the same.....why......why am I still missing him so much?.....

DNA closed his eyes again...........

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If we can only encounter each other rather than stay with each other, maybe it's better to just be an intron?

Reference:http://hi.baidu.com/salome_cfiwolf/blog/item/14b219bc062a300618d81fc2.html

15 More Days to THE DAY

Yes, I am terribly afraid of THE DAY.

So afraid that i get nightmares at times.

Out of 5 modules, I have failed 2 terribly.

This is like almost half of my modules.

I have never failed so terribly before.

I sometimes feel like crying upon seeing my scores.

What can i do to pull up my scores?

I have been doing chem exercises, hoping to pull up my scores.

I hope it works.

I need strength and courage to pull through this.

为了将来，我得拼下去。

诗云，加油！你行的！

The Big TWO ZERO

20 years of age. it has been 20 years since i arrived on earth. i am really thankful i have such great friends who never fail to forget me, or even my birthday. Especially amie and zaty, my bestest of the bestest friends. i have known them for almost 6 years and i remembered we used to quarrel to the extent of not speaking to each other for days or even weeks. Apart from the quarrels, they were the best. Never fail to cheer up my day. And once again, congratulations on being the first 2 person to wish me happy birthday, at the stroke of midnight. Although we only meet up once in a blue moon, which is super long, i appreciate the friendship and bonds we share. Through boundless boundaries, being different races and all. thank you for the wonderful secondary school days.

And not forgetting to thank my cliques (E5a6Bians), mich and tard. janice and kylie. Being in aussie, you guys still remembered. i am grateful for that. you guys brighten up my poly life :D not forgetting tard's heart-to-heart talks. Tard pls hang on. it will be over soon okay?

And of course my census colleagues, devi, anna, vong, zizah, danny, hong soon, yong ming (aka long lost pri sch friend), patricia and many many more. Although we were only colleagues for 3 months, you guys never fail to brighten and liven the boring working life at stats department :D

And again, my wonderful NUS friends, su shan, joan, kelvin, sheena, sheryl, jaclyn and seniors and OG mates and so on. thank you so much. we shall continue to strive on and jiayou for the finals next month.

And Xavier, Geeta, Frederick (SGS). thank you (:

And most of all, thank you daddy and mommy for bringing me up to where i am now. without you guys, i would never be here, to have the chance to continue my studies at NUS, especially daddy, for sacrificing, scrimping and saving just to allow me to continue my studies although its tough on you, being the solebread winner.

And today, the 2nd day of my 20 years, my tears fell. Partly because i know there are people who love and care for me, regardless of who i am. And partly because i read my sis blog. I have always regretted not being there at the last day of wake. If it wasnt for my practical, i would have skipped my lectures to just be there, in person. I didnt get to pay my last respect. AT ALL. Which i should have. Everyone was there, except me. the only niece who wasnt there. i am terribly sorry. i know you wouldnt mind. but i do. i really do. And now i wont be able to ever see you again. I pray and i hope in your next life, you would lead a healthy life, and a long life. For now, please bless your wife for i know she is hurt the most.

七七四十九天了，你终于可以回家了。。。

二伯，回家了。。。

Everything's CRAP.

CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP.

I feel like jumping down, or bang my head against the wall.

How can i ever survive this semester?

Most of my mid-term results are released back, and the moment i scroll down to my matric no, CRAP.

Heartbeat's fast, shivers down my spine etc.

Haven felt like this for a longg longg while.

I have tried my best didnt I?

No. i didnt. that was not good enough.

Imagine that fking pathetic score being my final examination score.

I would just drown myself.

Should i be contented just because my score isnt the lowest?

Isnt the lowest does not mean good enough for anything.

I didnt even reach the average score. Damn it.

sometimes, another side of me want to just give up and leave.

Personality Test (Overall quite true)

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

5 days to mid-terms

I feel like i am gonna breakdown any time. I know i am too pessimistic and worry too much, but i cant help it, especially when i compare myself to the rest. Maybe its the way i was brought up, or the environment that i have been in. Hearing people beside me saying "Woah, its J1/J2 work!" during lectures can be super demoralizing. Yeah, to you guys, it can seem to be so easy. But for me, a person not belonging to anywhere, not even a top polytechnic, it sends shivers down my spine. I want to be like the rest. But i simply cant. After yesterday's chatting session, I realise its either i am wayy too stressed or they are too relaxed. In one way or another, i have to admit that i am a perfectionist. I cant stand failure. What may seem good for you may not necessarily be the same to me. Damn. I think i have bottled up my feelings for too long. Maybe i should just... What if... A cry should suffice, de-stress. High expectations... what should i do? I know my dear friends in monash are feeling the same way... I wished i could fly over right now to give them a hug, to comfort them as well as myself, cause we are in the same boat. No way to go now, either do or die. By hook or by crook, i have to endure. If i can survive this semester, i will be able to survive the rest. If my mid-terms crash, i would ... go out to the world and work? Uncertainties...