I am seriously sinking into depression mode.

My ut grades are getting worse than sem 1.School is such a bore that i just want to skip all lessons.What's worse is that my mother has to be admitted to hospital FOR THE 2ND TIME THIS YEAR.Fuck.The first time was because of a suspected heart attack and now she has to go through an operation for her eyes.

Argh.All my mood towards christmas is sinking greatly.Just like the Titanic.

Gonna skip school on fri for yet another depressing reason.To visit my grandmother's grave.It is actually not a grave.It is situated in a church. The atmosphere during this period is so depressing. Okay. This is the 3rd time i used the word depressed.So you can see how DEPRESSED i am huh? I remembered the times when i accompanied my mum to the church. Upon seeing my grandmother's photograph,tears will start falling down her cheeks. Seeing my mum like this make my heart aches. I imagine myself seeing my mum's photo 50 years from now and yeah, it aches even more. Chanting the prayers with teared face.Gosh.I dont know what to say. My heart has turned soured.

Sometimes, i wonder why are we being born when we still have to die someday. Is this a norm?Are we just tools for the whoever who created us to get to his/her/its goal? Argh. My questions cant be answered.

I am so gonna try to skip tuesday lesson if there's no UT.What's the use of studying so hard when your grades are suckier each time you see them? The only thing that is keeping me up there is my daily grades.At least i see some hope in attending the lessons.

Friday is so near.6th Dec is so near. How i wish i can accompany mum for her operation on the 6th. Fucking UT.

BACK (:
haha.decided to delete the previous post cos i finally have something to write about.LOL.

9th of Nov was the first day of my life whereby i ton outside with my frens.haha.went to orchard with peggy to cut her hair in the late afternoon.That guy was omg! It reminded me of the neo-image thingy on channel u.LOL.He is damn power.He was like asking her why she wanted that length and all sorts.And she didnt know how to answer him.He was like erm there must be a concept and blah blah and fringe is the most important part blah blah.Haha.So professional seh.And it costs 34 bucks.OMG.She's rich unlike me.LOL.

then we slack there till 6 plus before leaving for pasir ris.Trained to city hall and waited for meiyu.While waiting, i played with peggy's psp.Whao.Suddenly kinda want to buy psp.But i am poor lah.Spent 100 bucks on my hair le.haha.So?i am so gonna work.i have thought through.No matter what kind of job it is, no matter how much the salary is, it is better than to stay at home and rot like what i used to do.So, wish me good luck huh?

okay.Then when meiyu finally came, we proceeded to pasir ris to meet up with liping and caiyu.Then we cabbed over.By the time we reached there, it was like 8 plus to 9 le.Haha.Stoned at one corner cos we didnt know the rest of the ppl there.Lol.Then at 10 plus it started to dizzle.Idiot.Had to find shelter before we become drenched chickens.So we proceeded to the arcade.Peggy and Liping were having the ball of the time playing the street basketball thingy.The rest of us slacked outside the arcade.Then we kinda slack till 11 plus.Then proceeded to Macs to spent the entire long long night playing poker cards, uno, psp etc.Time crawled so so so slowly.We were desperately waiting for 4am.Haha.So that we could have our breakfast.LOL.Meiyu stayed till 3 plus and finally could not take it and cabbed home.4 am finally arrived and my eyes were like some corpse.Ate pancakes.After breakfast, time was passing even slower than before.Soon, one by one was down.Fisrt caiyu.Then angel.Then me.Haha.Cos i woke up damn early during the day.Finally it was 8 in the morning.Everyone was like dying and so we cabbed home.OMG.After accompanying my family for their breakfast, i collapsed totally.Slept from 11 am till 6pm. Then got up for dinner and after that slept throughout till the next day at noon.Omg.I have slept for 20+ hours.Haha.

it was tiring but overall fun.Hmm, what a great start huh except for the no place to sleep.LOL.

went to AMK to peep and sis working.So filled with envy lah.She's working unlike me.So, i have asked her to help me ask if theres a place for me.Haha.Hope i get it though.LOL.Whats the job?Nah.i wont tell anyone.Shh.Its a secret within me and my sis.Haha.Unless i am so suay to let you all find out.Hope so wont.

Today is the start of lesson.Wha.Maths.Idiot.I so wann sleep (:

Ohaiyo(:

Finally back after a long period of being on hiatus mode..haha

My academic results has been wow.How should i put it?I think i should say i broke my record.Haha.3 straight As per week.Lol.I am now aiming for a jackpot and i will make sure i get a gpa of higher than 3.6.Gampete (:

During one of my class so called debate, we were saying that most people , okay is EVERYONE says that rp is a lousy school.But i think otherwise.Rp is the only school that focuses in PBL-ing.This means that our communication skills are being trained every single day.Therefore in the future, we would have no problem communicating with our clients.So yeah.So what if its a new school?I will prove it to all those who look down on us that rp can make it.Jia You (:

Meanwhile, i am still desperately waiting for my hols this coming weekend.Its crawling like hell lah can.Guess what i am gonna do this weekend?Dont tell you.Haha (: You will definitely get to see it if you see me everyday.All i can say is a super drastic change.Lol.For those who dun see me everyday, too bad.Wait long long (:(:

P.S. I NEED A JOB.ANY RECOMMENDS?

updates for yesterday:

yeah.yesterday was my birthday.So what interesting happened?Here's what happened.

First, W24L sang the birthday song for me.Wah. So touching.That was the first time.The interesting part is here.During the second break,almost everyone disappeared.Okay.Normal.Go for lunch mah.Then left a few of us including me lah.We were busy doing the stupid maths thingy.Then suddenly,one of the guy was like "hey! Go see gangster fight outside..."So he actually called out the few of us to "see the gangster fight".So, out we went.Then poof! My face, hair and clothes was covered with cream.OMG.Yeah.That was the first time i got bashed up by a cake.So the bottom line is they sabo me lah.LOL.And so i had a hard time washing out the creamy thingy and poor cleaner had to clean the entire floor.Haha.Part 2 was during the presentation time.Before my group started,my group mates announced blah blah blah and then they went singing the b'dae song again, this time together with the faci.Hehe.So in conclusion, this is the best birthday gift for me.

A BIG THANK YOU TO W24L.I LOVE YA GUYS (:

Okay.Thats the end for yesterday.Backtrack to 14 oct.Went to bugis to shop with parents.Bought a cardigion or what shall i call it.Supposed to wear it on my b'dae.And so ya.That was the one who got dirty from the cream.Next, went to woodlands for a sumptous dinner at some indonesian restaurant to kind of celebrate my b'dae in advance...

So ya.Thats all (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME (:

I'M OFFICIALLY SEVENTEENTH

YEAH(:

Balls Of Fury is sooo superr hilarious.Must watch it.It will be worth it.Seriously (:

Ended lesson at 4 plus yesterday and stoned at peggy's class till 6 plus where the security guard came to chase us outta the school.Okay.Thats the first time I get chased out of the school.LOL.Then stoned at W4 while waiting for the guys to finish playing their psp which was again superrrr long.Then, we strolled to causeway except me and peggy.We were walking or some kind of brisk walking to Causeway.And the superr good angel carried my HEAVY bag for me.Haha.I wasnt walking empty-handed okay.I carried his lappy for him in return loh.Haha.

Next, went to the pasar malam to buy our dinner that was supposed to be smuggled into the cinema.And yes we did smuggled them.Just a tip.If you wann smuggle food,bring a super big bag where you can stuff them into.Haha.All we had to do was to take out our lappy and stuff them in.Haha.So bad right.Too Bad (: And because of the long queue at the kfc, we missed 1/4 of the movie.Or should i say 1/5 or 1/6 or...whatever lah.

During the movie, the guys were laughing like hell okays. And as a result, we laughed like idiots too untill my tummy hurts.Ended at 9.Then me, peggy, angel and liping went off first while the rest went for a second dinner.haha.

Meanwhile,I have less than 7 days to my birthday.Whoots (: And by then i will be OFFICIALLY SEVENTEEN (:(:

And some grumbles to be made: Sem 2 is super duper tough and i really dread coming to school.Omg.It is only the 4th week man.I still have about 2 weeks before my 1 pathetic week of break.Then its lesson till december.Omg. And the worst thing is my grades sucks like hell okay.I dont wanna talk about it. And UTs starts this thurs.Die.I felt as if i learnt nothing okay.How am i gonna survive this sem's UT? Happy new year man.DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE....

[one] what is your natural hair color?
Black.

[two] where is your default picture on friendster taken?
Erm from someone's lappy? Its tom and jerry.yeah (:

[three] what's your middle name?
LimShi?

[four] your current relationship status?
hmm..i will let ya guess =]

[five] does your crush like you back?
Maybe yes, maybe not.But i hope HE does..

[six] what is your current mood?
tired-dy.Done so many complicated SIMULTANEOUS EQNS lah can?

[seven] what colour underwear are you wearing?
Blue?LOL..

[eight] what makes you happy?
My up-coming hols!!!

[ten] if you could go back in time and change something, what you would change?
it is impossible to change so why ask?

[eleven] if you must be an animal for one day, what would you be?
A puppy that will be loved by everyone.NOT those ABANDONED ONES :D

[twelve] ever had a near death experience?
Yeah.When i fell on the floor flat hitting my forehead and I thot that’s it.THE END.

[thirteen] something you do a lot?
Use the lappy cos i need it for lessons

[fourteen] the song stuck in your head?
DAN SHEN QIAN TAO by Penny Dai (the falling in love theme song)

[fifteen] who did you copy and paste this from?
IZZATI & HUSBAND (:

[sixteen] name someone with the same birthday as you?
hmm..my uncle :D

[seventeen] when was the last time you cried?
Sunday night when i watched the President's Star Charity.Yeah,i am the emo type.

[eighteen] have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
DUH.I was in choir for 4 years.I have even danced in front of a large audience (:

[nineteen] if you could have one super power what would it be?
A wishing power?So that i can wish for the best for everyone.Good riteeee?

[twenty] what's the first thing you notice about the preferred sex?
The appearance.Dont mistaken me.Not the features nor size.Cos i hate ppl with piercings on their face.So uggglyyy can?

[twenty-one] what do you usually order from starbucks?
i don't go to starbucks. Cos i hate coffee.

[twenty-two] what's your biggest secret?
My secret IS A SECRET.haha

[twenty-three] favorite colors?
blue.

[twenty-five] do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
No.I think its kind of childish.LOL.

[twenty-six] what are you eating or drinking at the moment?
AIR =)

[twenty-seven] you speak any other language?
Chinese, Malay, Hokkien, Japanese (lil bit ah) :D

[twenty-eight] what's your favorite smell?
Erm my perfume? (:

[twenty-nine] if you could describe your life in one word what would it be?
BEAUTIFUL =)

[thirty] when was the last time you gave/received a hug?
last week i think.

[thirty-one] have you ever kissed in the rain?
Erm no.

[thirty-two] what are you thinking about right now?
When can i lie on the bed and sleep

[thirty-three] what should you be doing?
Doing my rj for the SAS talk.So sian lah can?Talk every single day.

[thirty-four] what was the last thing that made you upset/angry?
When the stupid culture faci gave me a C for my daily grade.She SUCKS!!

[thirty-five] how often do you pray?
I actually dont pray except on special occasions.I m a free-thinker.

[thirty-six] do you like working in the yard?
i have never tried and will never try.

[thirty-seven] if you could have any last name in the world, what would you want?
nothing.I love my name(:

[thirty-eight] do you act differently around your crush?
Duh.I will tend to be SHY.Chey chey

[thirty-nine] name one song that reminds you of an ex?
i cant think of it now.

[forty] who was the last person to make you cry?
The ppl from the various disabled society.Their stories are super duper sadd ):

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