5 days to mid-terms

I feel like i am gonna breakdown any time. I know i am too pessimistic and worry too much, but i cant help it, especially when i compare myself to the rest. Maybe its the way i was brought up, or the environment that i have been in. Hearing people beside me saying "Woah, its J1/J2 work!" during lectures can be super demoralizing. Yeah, to you guys, it can seem to be so easy. But for me, a person not belonging to anywhere, not even a top polytechnic, it sends shivers down my spine. I want to be like the rest. But i simply cant. After yesterday's chatting session, I realise its either i am wayy too stressed or they are too relaxed. In one way or another, i have to admit that i am a perfectionist. I cant stand failure. What may seem good for you may not necessarily be the same to me. Damn. I think i have bottled up my feelings for too long. Maybe i should just... What if... A cry should suffice, de-stress. High expectations... what should i do? I know my dear friends in monash are feeling the same way... I wished i could fly over right now to give them a hug, to comfort them as well as myself, cause we are in the same boat. No way to go now, either do or die. By hook or by crook, i have to endure. If i can survive this semester, i will be able to survive the rest. If my mid-terms crash, i would ... go out to the world and work? Uncertainties...

1 MONTH INTO UNIVERSITY LIFE...

seriously, i have never felt so tired before. imagine having to do 3 lab reports a week, tonnes of tutorials, tonnes of tests and whatnots. this was the reason why i didnt want to enter a junior college. i have had a taste of what is it like to be in a junior college. but alas, i cant escape the fact that university life is like that too. every single day after lessons, i have to return home, eat dinner, start my tutorials/lab reports and then revise what has been taught earlier in the day. no time for anything else. to cut short, i have simply no life. my daily routine = wake up, go for lessons, return home, do tutorials and whatnots, mug, sleep. AND THIS INCLUDES MY WEEKENDS. how boring can it be. to be exact, life in RP was simply slacky. I used to worry during PP and FYP. but seriously, that is chicken feet compared to this. I am afraid i cant hang on. I am standing on a soon to be worn out rope, trying to hold on for my dear life. i always tell myself to perserve and you will reap what you sow. but to be honest, i dont even know if i can wait till then.

STACY, THIS IS THE LAST HURDLE TO OVERCOME. ONCE YOU HAVE OVERCOME, EVERYTHING WILL BE A BREEZE. ITS JUST 4 YEARS. IT WILL PASS IN A BLINK. HANG ON. DONT GIVE UP. EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT. YOUR FRIENDS WILL BE THERE TO SUPPORT YOU. JIAYOU!

NUS Science Orientation Week Part II

As usual, SOW has been fabulous, except for the fear factor part which i was totally freaked out that i pulled out of the segment. Loads of photos, both glam and unglam were taken by my seniors. I am so glad i took part in SOW!

Photo galore below :D

DAY 1

WET & DIRTY GAMES

AMAZING RACE

SENTOSA

FRESHMEN INAUGURATION 2010

RAG & FLAG DAY CUM YOG 2010

NUS Science Orientation Week Part I

Yes, I am finally back from camp! These few days was absolute fun, joy and laughters. Although I was the only poly student from my entire OG group, or maybe even OG house, I was glad that i was able to fit in. Many friends made and many bonds forged. Loads of photos taken by the seniors too. The only stressed time was during the CORS bidding session. Seriously, there were many advices given by different seniors, some of them conflicting with each other. I had to filter out and seriously think through which path i wanted to take and the consequences. Like the econs module. Out of all the faculties and modules, computing, design and the others are definitely out cause i have seriously no interest in all those. The only choice being econs. But being a poly student means a disadvantage cause i have no econs background. My RP senior warned me about it but i went ahead with it. I believe i will be able to do well as long as i make a constant effort to study. Same for Jap.

So here are the module that have been pre-allocated and the modules i plan to take:

Pre-allocated
1. LSM1101 Biochemistry of biomolecules
2. LSM1102 Molecular Genetics
3. CM1401 Chemistry for Life Sciences

To bid for
1. EC1301 Principles of Economics
2. LAJ1201 Japanese 1

WOOHOO! Photos up soon!

Upcoming events:
1. Freshmen Inauguration
2. CORS bidding part II
3. Flag Day
4. Science Orientation Week Part II
5. Rag Day
6. Registering for tutorials

AND FINALLY, LESSONS OFFICIALLY STARTS...

It's time for the audiences to leave

Friends have once again flown back to Melbourne to continue their war, whereas i will be starting my war 2 weeks from now.

Don't know if i can make it but i am gonna try anyway, to at least get a degree.

STACY! YOU CAN DO IT. ONLY 4 YEARS! JIAYOU :D

Fun, Joy & Laughter

The whole month of july has so far been a busy one, with gatherings ranging from my poly friends to my colleagues.

Friends touched down on the 2nd, went movie-ing with them, watched the eclipse which mich would drool over her jacob whenever he appears; 5km cancer run at pasir ris park; makan session at chinatown with loads and loads of singaporean food cause they missed eating them; mo

re makaning at rochor road tauhuey stall and MORE makaning at chomp chomp; and lastly singing session at civics center. After all these foodies, omg. I will have to eat lesser. Haha.

Apart from that, went sentosa with DOS colleagues, with the hot and humid weather we played captain's ball and frisbee, building sand castles, chatting under the hot sun and finally lunching at vivo's ramen ten.

The upcoming ones? OMG. There's a LOT.

1) QET on 15th

2) Friends flying back to aussie on 16th

3) SOW camp briefing in the morning, aunt's house in the afternoon on 17th

4) BBQ with DOS colleagues on 23rd

5) Registration at NUS on 26th

6) SOW camp from 28th to 6th aug (sch starts on 2nd aug)

i just realised most of them are to do with sch stuffs.

.... and more to come.

Anyways, again to my beloved friends, bon vovage, see you guys in december and dont forget our 2015 pact :D

Last Day At DOS

The day that i have waited for so long had finally arrived, but not in a way i expected it to. All because of my super high fever, its peak being 39.8 degrees. I thought the 2 days mc would suffice but alas it didnt. Instead it got so worse until i sat in the toilet floor, strength-less to even sit upright. This was the first time i got so sick, till the extent of having to visit the doc twice, with no use at all. I was so sick of swallowing so many pills, till the extent i had difficulty swallowing any other thing too. Whatever i ate came out less than an hr later, i felt so dehydrated but i could not drink. my lips teared and i was on the verge of dying. After 5 long days of torture, my mum couldnt bear to see me in this wrecked state, she brought me to the dangkee downstairs. True enough, the funeral i saw on my last of work aggravated my condition.

Anyways, all i wanna say is that i am thankful for my friends and family for their care and concern, especially my mum for wasting no time is caring for my every single needs when i was bedridden. The next paragraph is dedicated to my beloved DOS colleagues; sorry i wasnt able to prepare anything due to my state of condition that day.

SINYEE:

cant believe we have known each other for almost 4 months! if it was not for anna, being enthusiastic in making friends with you, devi and azizah, we wouldnt have talked to each other. Seriously i will miss the times where we would squeeze ard the small table during lunch time, listening to brother kueh and pat crapping and joking, joining in their laughters etc. I will always rmb the time my heels broke on the way to work and i had to walked barefooted to work, when you came to my rescue by lending me your running shoes! Haha thats so embarassing man!

anyways, thanks for bringing joyy into my working life and i will definitely miss you. last but not least, all the best for your future and meet up soon!

ANNA:

thank you for your gift! Seriously, i enjoyed the times where we would make the paper planes out of zakir's paper and throw them ard the ktv gang's side or to brother kueh's side, not forgetting the Mr Smiley and and pringles frisbee cover. That was definitely so much fun! Without all these little things to make my day, i wouldnt have survive till tday!

so, i wanna thank every single one of you for being in my life and you have left a green footprint in my life! all the best for you life and see you ard in school!

BRO KUEH aka SOON KUEH:

i wanna thank you for all your teachings, regardless of whether they are good or the crappy ones! without them, i believe out sasquatch gang will be so bored! I also enjoyed seeing you crapping your way thru during briefing with the clown and even with the FA! Stay that way okay!

last but not least, all the best for your studies and last long with your gal!

PAT:

although we haven been close to each other for long, it was really nice talking to you and sometimes riding on the same bus to work and home. You could always make "nicholas" speak up no matter how! haha. Since mixing ard with you, i noticed that he seemed to open up a bit more during our lunchtime and join in our conversation. Good job! haha.

anyways, happy working with him and i wish you all the best for you future! cheers :D

YM:

hello primary sch friend! i seriously didnt noticed that you were in the same cluster with me until syuhaida told me! haha i didint realised i was so recognizable huh? after all these years! If i didnt rmb wrongly, u are still so quiet! tsk tsk. must open up more okay! dont worry, pat will help you to speak up more! she ah lian mah! haha jkjk.

anyways, i wish you all the best in your future endeavours and see you ard!