yes. my sore throat and blocked nose came back yesterday.
anyways, i am gonna be very busy for the week ahead because:
tuesday - ntu for fyp
wednesday - ntu for fyp (shld be)
thursday - ntu for fyp (shld be)
friday - ntu for fyp (shld be)
sat and sun - work
feel like dying liao. my voice. haiyoo.

meanwhile, like finally i bought the twilight books.
using my kinokuniya voucher.
i was the only one carrying a basket with ten books at the counter there.
spent a total of 143.87 dollars.
great. i can rot my hols by reading all the books i have bought.
now, i need to get eclipse and breaking dawn.

had first FYP meeting at NTU today. Everything was quite chim. Including the machineries we are gonna use. Lots of unfamiliar info being thrown to us and we have only a few days to get our literature review ready. See the info till my eyes wanna close. still haven write the info ion the log book. And i have 3 pages long of notes to copy into. Thurs and Fri need to have meeting again. Hais. God bless.

i am feeling very terrible since Wednesday evening..
my fever comes and goes like nobody's business,
my wisdom tooth just likes to play a fool with me,
my nose is in a state of disaster, running tap for a while and then blocked for a while.
i am starting to cough too.
how disastrous can it be?
i think i need an MC.

sometimes, i wonder why can god be so unfair at times? Why do some people simply enjoy their life without having to bother about how much they spend and waste; while others have to scrimp and save like beggars? and yes, i am the latter one. i am not lying. yesterday when my sis showed me the financial assisstance form which dad filled in, i felt so sad. total income earned for the household = $0. i just hope i can help my dad..

dear god, please listen to my pleas. My dad is the solebread winner in the entire household. Pls do whatever you can to help him. I will be grateful for your help..

the recession has hit very hard on my family

yesterday, the bad news came

my father was retrenched

damn that company for retrenching my father

he has to support a family of 5

and now, wtf

i need to resign and get a higher paid job(s)

ASAP

i am damn pissed off right now

F**K

Having genetics ut later at 415pm and here i am trying to study as much as i can. And yea. I repeated my stunt of skipping the last 2 weeks. But still have to come back for ut later and monday. But i dont feel like studying. I wanna give up for no reason. I have this thinking that no matter how high my GPA may be this sem, i will not get 4.0 for overall too. Hais.. Went for Hep B vaccination on wed. I am the suay one with no antibodies against Hep B. This means that i will have to complete the full course of vaccination (total 3 jabs + 1 booster). This takes 6 months. Die. The new term starts on April and this means that i will 99.9% be barred from lab. Unless the school allows me to resume lab activities while on the course of treatment ): And i have a date on valentine's day, with the second dose of vaccination. Haha. Which also falls on a sat. Which means i have to apply leave again. And i cant do transition the next day cause my arm swell the next day. Hais..

Anyways, will start tutoring next wed. And yes, more money for me. I think i need to get my hair re-dyed. I sort of regretted giving my aunt to do it for me. Argh. Stupid hair. I have been thinking whether or not to quit working there. Ok. Actually, i want to quit. But i know this aint any easy task. They confirm wont let me go. Haha. I shld have had bad attitude like someone so that if i wanna quit, they will let me go. How shld i go about it? I will get very busy once the FYP allocation is out. Definitely i need my weekends for the proj cause Adele and FG both in IPBMS means wed is out of the question. I have also got a better offer with $6.50 an hr. Omg. How? Ok. I need to get it over and done with asap..

went for the R.I.C.E Proj on Saturday. Reached woodlands at 8am. Then stoned till 835 where saretta arrived. Then stoned further to wait for the late queens. we were supposed to reach Christchurch Sec at 9am and in the end. we were late. Anyways, waited for IC leader to give us directions. Then i was suddenly put into another grp.WTH. we already informed them earlier and they argreed. So we argued and finally the head said he was RISKING to put us together. Eh. we did an extra block for u guys leh. 5 blocks mind u.

Anyways, the residents there damn unsympathetic can. some damn fucked up. 明明在家，却死都不要开门。some open the door so damn bloody small, like 怕我们吃掉他。some even more FUCK. 我们一说我们是从Red Cross, they straight away slam their door on us. What the fuck are they trying to do. Please for goodness sake, 你们不会觉得很丢脸吗？I am sorry to say that but the worse lot are Chinese. Suddenly, 我很庆幸我只是半个华人。否则我会觉得非常丢脸。Use ur brain to think lah. Some day your kids will also have to do such things right. What if someone slams their door at your kid? Malays are 100X times better than u chinese. Even if they do not want to donate, they will at least have the initiative to politely say no thanks. They even spent their time to listen to our publicity for the door-to-door rice collection project. Overall, all damn fucked up. Damn you!

Luckily, had a day off yesterday due to our hard work. Next sat and sun will be the worse one i guess. Have to carry sacks of rice and then deliver them around. For the sake of charity, i shall hang on. Damn.

Meanwhile, i always thought that there will only be political matters in workplaces on TV. However, this has also come true in real life. In my workplace. I dont know why some people like to 靠关系 to do things, or even 威胁. Whats the point man. u shld do it based on your own capability. This kind of ppl really make me want to 反胃. These do not apply to crews only. Even the managers are the same. Some 从别人听说我们这样那样，就乱乱骂我们。请问这是什么天理啊。Eh. Pls lah. Can u use ur brain to think anot. Do not anyhow reprimand ppl for the things they did not do. This is not the first time. I used to respect u alot but now i am starting to hate u i tell u straight. u might not like what i am saying but it is true. I dislike ur unreasonableness and such. Everyone can forget including u. So dont come and say i put the blame on u. U might have really forget and in order to hide that, u say we put the blame on you. Fuck. If i really cannot take it, I will 辞职。I dont care how much u may want me to stay but i dont give a damn anymore. i cant take such unreasonableness here. I dont want and i dont have to. So you better dont test my patience and push me to the limit. I will really do it and no matter how serious will it be to the extent that i will even be terminated, I DONT CARE.

After 2 weeks of MIA, I am back with a lot of details. And I mean A LOT. Let’s go...

25.12.08
As usual, since it was christmas day, had to go to grandpa’s house. Finally my dad allowed me to drink there. Damn nice to drink. Lol. So yeah. I drink. After drinking 1 and a half cup of wine, my face machiam put blusher. Damn red man. My sis and mum drank but nothing happen except me. Jialat. Means ppl will know if I drink cause I become red very fast. Anyways, one news received from colleague. Supposed to work today from 8am to 12pm. But me and sis didn’t turn up so no show. What the hell!! I confirmed wrote in the request book. I requested for annual leave. Then “X” said I told he/her that I can work. Since when sia. Its common sense that I am a mixed and thus I need to celebrate Christmas too right. Aiyoh.

28.12.08
No work today. Cause need to attend wedding. This wedding I must say is woah. Since it’s a malay wedding, we went in the morning. And believe it or not, it lasted less than half an hour. We just went in, ate, and went off. That’s malay wedding style, says dad. Well. That was super duper fast. Anyways, told dad I had my bonus and wanted to buy my mp3 since my old one went bust. Like finally he agreed. Of course lah. My money not his mah. So proceed to TM to buy. Purple Ipod Nano. YEAH! Finally man. I had wanted it since 76748763 days ago. My bonus totally finished. Well, then proceeded to white sands in the evening with sis and dy. Chat in mc till ping and ting came. Since we did not want to eat bbq, we decided to settle our dinner there. Then went to costa sands resort. Will be having chalet till 30.12.08. settled our belongings down and sent dy off. That night was extremely long to me, sis, ping and ting. One funny thing I noticed about the chalet. Everyone slept that night except the 4 of us. LOL. I thought ppl normally ton in the night? What an exception man. LOL. Anyways, we were the only ones left and thus we paly mahjong to while our time away. But the more we played, the more we felt sian. And its only like 3am in the morning. So we decided to slack in mac. Wanted to eat sundae in the first place but no more ice cream. In the end, we settled for apple pie. Then slack in the mac also very sian. Sian till I feel like falling asleep. So in the end, around 4 am then we went back to the room. The room damn small loh. Whalao. Somemore one mattress is to be shared by 4 of us. In the end, I never even sleep properly loh. imagine half of your body on the mattress and half of it on the floor. Hais.

29.12.08
So called “slept” for 3 hrs. ordered Mac for breakfast.Then ping & ting slept till afternoon while me and sis watched the dark knight halfway only. Went escape to play in the early evening. I love the wet & wild. Damn nice although I was soaked to the skn.went back at 8 to the chalet. Watched the little nyonya till 10pm. Wanted to eat but then no food for us liao. All eaten up. No choice 4 of us went to eat Mac. Took cab home. Reached home at 1145pm

31.12.08
Last day of 2008, went to cousin’s house to so called countdown.

05.01.09
Start school liao. Went to E1level 6 to collect voucher with dy during first break. Haiyo. Get book store voucher again. Nothing to buy sia. RP no need books. Actually had 100 plus dollars voucher from popular and bata. But same thing. Nothing to buy. In the end my brother used all up. Wth.why don’t they give ntuc voucher? At least I can use mah. Haiyooo. Anyways, 3 more days for me… I wana do my hair…

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