I was super depressed today. See the word WAS. Means i am not depressed/less depressed now. The reason? I could not decide if i should continue with IPBMS and go to monash or go the normal route and go to local Uni. Of course i would want the first choice. BUT DUE TO MONEY CONSTRAINTS, I COULDNT. Moreover, i didnt want to burden my parents with the money that they have to come up with. I know that it is impossible to get that kind of money. Moreover, i didnt want to get a bank loan. I will seriously be very guilty. In the end, i could not take it and broke down. I was really upset about it till i could not hold it in my heart longer. I had to cry. Luckily, my friends were all there for me. They knew what problem i was facing and comforted me and asked me to think it another way around. And so after school, i went to find the head and explain about my case and asked her loads of questions. So, in the end, i have finally decided. I AM DROPPING IPBMS. I AM NOT GOING TO MONASH ANYMORE. I WILL STRIVE FOR THE BEST AND ENTER LOCAL UNI. THATS MY GOAL. My burden has finally lighten. Although i have sacrificed something, i have also gained something. Which is happiness. I now know one thing. It does not matter if take extra module and go to overseas uni. As long as you have the determination to do well and be content with whatever you have now, even if you are unable to continue your studies into uni, you will still have happiness for you have your family's support.

Lastly, i would like to thank my father for allowing me to fulfill my dream of wanting to go monash for this sem. However, i have decided to drop so as to lighten your burden. Its ok not to go to monash but i dont want you to stress about money matters just to fulfill my dream. I fully understand and i shant force things...

Went to EXPO for Food Fair and Changi Airport Terminal 3 on friday...

let the pics do the talking (:

In NEL..

Meeting Point in T3..

Random Signboard..

Departure..

Control Tower..

Celebrate the Magic at Changi Airport..

The viewing platform..

Gelare..

The viewing below viewing platform..

Niccee.. But cant go down ):

GST refund..

Departure.. I want go MONASH ):

Side view of Departure..

Escalator..

Another random signboard..

Some machine..

Glassssss..

very shinyyy...

Can you see the plane?

Recycled paper.. Can see the word A.I.R.P.O.R.T?

Our wishes..

My wish..

Rachael's wish..

Michelle's wish..

Lastly, home sweet home (:

Next stop would be to go to the budget terminal. haha (:(:

One word to describe today: SUAY

Because first, have to send my lappy to IT helpdesk cause everytime switch on will have some msg saying need to check C drive for consistency thingy.

Then today have genetics lab lesson whereby we need to take our cheek cells and put on the microscopic slides and cover with the cover slip. Then don’t know which fucking idiot person from the previous class left the cover slip on the chair and stupid me didn’t notice the damn thing and when to put my hands on the chair. Then I felt a tinge of pain. Then I saw the stupid cover slip that poked through my glove. Then the moment I took out my glove. WOW. My finger was bloody. Even when I wash under the running tap also my blood like tap. Then just now I accidently press it. DAMN PAIN TILL MY TEARS CAME OUT. Then now I don’t dare to see my finger. The cut very deep sia, plus my finger seems to be swollen. Now I scared my wound contaminated cause it happened in the lab then I not sure if the cover slip was contaminated. HOW???

Omg. I just hope that my finger will be fine tomorrowww…

FUCK. My emotions are running wild. Why the hell did I take IPBMS? I wont be able to cope with the extra modules in correlation to the FYP, as well as the amount of money that is needed to go to monash. The head just dropped a bomb on me just now when she said she made a mistake about the number of modules we have to take. We were supposed to take 5 modules this semester, as well as 5 in year 3 sem 1 and 2. But now all the IPBMS students are taking only 4. This means that we have to come back during the holidays to do the additional one module. Fuck. Plus I need to do my FYP during the holidays too. WTH. Then still need to take Hepatitis B vaccination. Damn it. Then need to go briefing with parents on 29th NOV about this matter. Then I think I will have to drop this thing. Because I do not have the means to carry on. 50K for the monash thing. So I think after 29th NOV, my fate may or may not change. For the better or worse that is.

I think I should have just went to TP.

I have seriously no mood to carry on with my work. DAMN IT.

Went to braddel heights community center with mum to collect the transport cum NTUC cum singtel voucher just now. Only one word to describe the situation. HORRENDOUS. omg. I also saw 3 things. KIA SU, KIA SI & GAN CHIONG. Everyone was squeezing like hell. There was like a human stampede and all sorts. So damn noisy till i cant hear what the person in charge was talking. No. I think shouting.

Anyways, went to watch BUTTERFLY LOVERS yesterday with colleagues. Damn nice and very very sad. Especially the ending. omg. And its so sad to see wuzun being pierced by sword, arrows etc. Ahhh.. But, i didnt cry. Surprisingly. haha. the girls all cried, except for me and the guys. Yes. Indeed it was very sad but my tears just seemed to be stuck. lol.

So, people who's having their pp assesment, good luck and god bless. In return, bless me too for mine is this friday. HAHA (:

NOTE TO MYSELF:

Time is the coin of your life

It is the only coin you have

And only you can determne how it will be spent (:

Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself.

I, not events have the power to make me happy or unhappy.

Today, I can choose which it shall be.

Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasnt arrived yet.

I have just one day - today

And i am going to be happy in it (: